I was mixing Winterpipedream and failing to make it work as usual while doing such, I decided to take a break and make a post here instead. So here I am. If I had to find a word to describe the last eight to nine days it would probably be something along the lines of "a rollercoaster." "a pursuit." "a tribulation." or *gasp...* "life." I reached the bottom once and for all and actually am not sure if I've climbed up yet, at all. I know it's pathetic but I couldn't/can't help it - the pain of not being able to breathe music (as I like to put it) as well as other smaller things made me self-destruct, crawl into my shell and feel eager to do nothing but sleep. Anyone who truly knows me knows that disregarding dreams, sleeping is a waste of time in my world. Thus I deliberately wanted to waste my time. That should tell you something. Ever since then I've been basically trying to seek balance with the little things as there's nothing I can do with the big ones for a while. At times I've fallen back, at times I've actually felt rather happy and like this holiday that will end in less than two weeks shouldn't end. But yeah, I won't get too emo, I don't want to at least, so let's just move on, because there are things I have to share other than just angst.
Art ironically has perhaps just increased as a part of my life ever since my sufferings occurred. Since my last post I've watched four of the latest Harry Potter movies (The Order Of The Phoenix and Half-Blood Prince once, the part one of Deathly Hallows twice, part two of Deathly Hallows once), read two books, written down numerous poems and lyrical ideas as well as started on one new song, and recorded guitars, bass, vocals and drums for Ravinethrall and Wicked Breath both. I know that in the same time it sounds contradicting to what I just wrote in the above paragraph but I emphasize that my guitars do not sound like they are supposed to. Anyway, my visit to the library on Thursday was maybe the one thing that turned all for better. (Not exactly art-related, but I've also been on seven walks, btw). I loaned a total of five books - Syleily ("Embrace") by Maria Vuorio, Skjut Apelsinen ("Shot Oranges" by Mikael Vuori), Not The End of The World by Geraldine McCaughrean, Uskonnonfilosofia ("Philosophy of Religion") by Timo Helenius, Timo Koistinen and Sami Pihlström and Kirjoittamisen Ihanuus: Nuoren Kirjoittajan Opas ("The Delight of Writing: The Guide of A Young Writer") by Katariina Kuick and Ylva Karlsson. Maria Vuorio's book turned out to be decent, consisting of seven short stories which for the most part lacked cohesiveness within themselves to me. I could not get into her writing style but I thought that at least two of the seven stories were quite good. Skjut Apelsinen, on the other hand, was BRILLIANT. One of the best books I've ever read, it mainly focuses on the angst of a 16-year-old. (I bet it doesn't come as a surprise that I loved it now does it, heh.) It's more than just that though, and among other things I found enormous and fantastically used contrasts in humor and seriousness, naivety and depth, love and hate, questions and answers, you name it. The protagonist ends up making poems to relieve his emotions (again, I bet someone wrote this book for me) and falling in love with a girl who is the only one that understands his rebellious clothing (believe me, this doesn't mean what you think it does, READ IT :P) after him being rejected by the most beautiful girl in school, and obviously in front of everyone. The book plays with the struggles all teenagers face but doesn't come across as cheesy. It's laughable, intense, in-your-face and straightforward as much as it's abstract and poetic. A masterpiece, really. Niemi has another book that's even more famous and after this I MUST read it as soon as I get the chance. The Guide of A Young Writer has inspired me even more though, obviously. I've done poems in Finnish based on the tips and ideas the book has given, and it's been wonderful even if I haven't used that much time on it yet. The book has also given me a thematic idea for Wicked Breath's second album. (You heard me, second... Maybe, just maybe I should finish the first album first as well as Theban Cycle's debut EP, the Ravinethrall stuff, not to mention my untitled project? *rolls eyes*) Here are some of the best poems I've done so far. Some of them were haikus but I'll rather translate them word for word than attempt maintaining the number of syllables. I'll also note that without exception all these poems have been done very briefly in a rather improvised manner.
I pray that the figure beside me would turn to real
turn to you, the home of my love.
For a third day I'm speaking to you
but you don't reply, at all.
I paint the walls, paint the ceiling,
paint the meadow and fitted carpet.
The emptiness won't release, like ice beneath my feet
I'm cold and tingled.
I melt at a distance with the distance as the reason.
Sadness of the dancer
gives birth to happiness large
a protecting flood.
Redness of the stalk of a tree
glows with the color of her
shoots itself.
A basket lies in the moss
a burrow shouts the name of the hunter.
White, green, black, dark
a bird wishes ugly night.
But ugliness is only ugly to the beautiful
to the ugly it's alike.
The companion drinks from the oasis
from the brook of pretty secret.
Ravinethrall-wise I'm done recording Winterpipedream entirely, (Still Not) Burnished's guitars and bass, and dearth's bass and most of the guitars. Wicked Breath is still on a bit of a hiatus but Tear of The Afternoon is done completely and Finland will soon be too. For Polarity, I've recorded the bass. I am now hoping to get Bequeath out by the end of this month and Perfidy of Judgment somewhere in October, but the latter isn't fully in my own hands.
Faith No More has taken over my intent to listen to my favorite bands' discographies. I'd say it's more fortunate than unfortunate, since Angel Dust and The Real Thing don't seem to be hailed as classics for nothing. If I had heard songs like Jizzlobber and Malpractice before I started Ravinethrall they would've been a big influence for sure. I'm also thinking of doing an instrumental cover of Quote Unquote, the masterpiece by Mike Patton's other band, Mr. Bungle. It would fit perfectly for the second Ravinethrall EP whenever the time comes for that, mood-wise if not else. Plus I probably won't finish the cover for Insomnia by Faithless I was about to, and I still want to do some cover and put it out officially, sooner or later. Old KoRn and Deftones plus Opeth and P.O.D.'s new songs have also rolled in my headphones the past week. For the fanboys and -girls, you can hear The Devil's Orchard here and On Fire here.
That's about it. I'm hoping to deliver one or two more posts before school starts again. :) Be blessed! I know I won't...
Art ironically has perhaps just increased as a part of my life ever since my sufferings occurred. Since my last post I've watched four of the latest Harry Potter movies (The Order Of The Phoenix and Half-Blood Prince once, the part one of Deathly Hallows twice, part two of Deathly Hallows once), read two books, written down numerous poems and lyrical ideas as well as started on one new song, and recorded guitars, bass, vocals and drums for Ravinethrall and Wicked Breath both. I know that in the same time it sounds contradicting to what I just wrote in the above paragraph but I emphasize that my guitars do not sound like they are supposed to. Anyway, my visit to the library on Thursday was maybe the one thing that turned all for better. (Not exactly art-related, but I've also been on seven walks, btw). I loaned a total of five books - Syleily ("Embrace") by Maria Vuorio, Skjut Apelsinen ("Shot Oranges" by Mikael Vuori), Not The End of The World by Geraldine McCaughrean, Uskonnonfilosofia ("Philosophy of Religion") by Timo Helenius, Timo Koistinen and Sami Pihlström and Kirjoittamisen Ihanuus: Nuoren Kirjoittajan Opas ("The Delight of Writing: The Guide of A Young Writer") by Katariina Kuick and Ylva Karlsson. Maria Vuorio's book turned out to be decent, consisting of seven short stories which for the most part lacked cohesiveness within themselves to me. I could not get into her writing style but I thought that at least two of the seven stories were quite good. Skjut Apelsinen, on the other hand, was BRILLIANT. One of the best books I've ever read, it mainly focuses on the angst of a 16-year-old. (I bet it doesn't come as a surprise that I loved it now does it, heh.) It's more than just that though, and among other things I found enormous and fantastically used contrasts in humor and seriousness, naivety and depth, love and hate, questions and answers, you name it. The protagonist ends up making poems to relieve his emotions (again, I bet someone wrote this book for me) and falling in love with a girl who is the only one that understands his rebellious clothing (believe me, this doesn't mean what you think it does, READ IT :P) after him being rejected by the most beautiful girl in school, and obviously in front of everyone. The book plays with the struggles all teenagers face but doesn't come across as cheesy. It's laughable, intense, in-your-face and straightforward as much as it's abstract and poetic. A masterpiece, really. Niemi has another book that's even more famous and after this I MUST read it as soon as I get the chance. The Guide of A Young Writer has inspired me even more though, obviously. I've done poems in Finnish based on the tips and ideas the book has given, and it's been wonderful even if I haven't used that much time on it yet. The book has also given me a thematic idea for Wicked Breath's second album. (You heard me, second... Maybe, just maybe I should finish the first album first as well as Theban Cycle's debut EP, the Ravinethrall stuff, not to mention my untitled project? *rolls eyes*) Here are some of the best poems I've done so far. Some of them were haikus but I'll rather translate them word for word than attempt maintaining the number of syllables. I'll also note that without exception all these poems have been done very briefly in a rather improvised manner.
I pray that the figure beside me would turn to real
turn to you, the home of my love.
For a third day I'm speaking to you
but you don't reply, at all.
I paint the walls, paint the ceiling,
paint the meadow and fitted carpet.
The emptiness won't release, like ice beneath my feet
I'm cold and tingled.
I melt at a distance with the distance as the reason.
Sadness of the dancer
gives birth to happiness large
a protecting flood.
Redness of the stalk of a tree
glows with the color of her
shoots itself.
A basket lies in the moss
a burrow shouts the name of the hunter.
White, green, black, dark
a bird wishes ugly night.
But ugliness is only ugly to the beautiful
to the ugly it's alike.
The companion drinks from the oasis
from the brook of pretty secret.
Ravinethrall-wise I'm done recording Winterpipedream entirely, (Still Not) Burnished's guitars and bass, and dearth's bass and most of the guitars. Wicked Breath is still on a bit of a hiatus but Tear of The Afternoon is done completely and Finland will soon be too. For Polarity, I've recorded the bass. I am now hoping to get Bequeath out by the end of this month and Perfidy of Judgment somewhere in October, but the latter isn't fully in my own hands.
Faith No More has taken over my intent to listen to my favorite bands' discographies. I'd say it's more fortunate than unfortunate, since Angel Dust and The Real Thing don't seem to be hailed as classics for nothing. If I had heard songs like Jizzlobber and Malpractice before I started Ravinethrall they would've been a big influence for sure. I'm also thinking of doing an instrumental cover of Quote Unquote, the masterpiece by Mike Patton's other band, Mr. Bungle. It would fit perfectly for the second Ravinethrall EP whenever the time comes for that, mood-wise if not else. Plus I probably won't finish the cover for Insomnia by Faithless I was about to, and I still want to do some cover and put it out officially, sooner or later. Old KoRn and Deftones plus Opeth and P.O.D.'s new songs have also rolled in my headphones the past week. For the fanboys and -girls, you can hear The Devil's Orchard here and On Fire here.
That's about it. I'm hoping to deliver one or two more posts before school starts again. :) Be blessed! I know I won't...
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